The beach. My favourite place on the entire Island. I come here to think, try and sort my mind out. Unfortunately, of late it has been failing miserably. I share this place with him. So its not surprising that when I turned the corner I found him sitting on the dock, staring out to sea.
I feel so guilty. I don't even know if I have anything to do with his bad mood, but for some reason, I felt like it was my fault. In my heart, his pain was my pain.
I gradually walk over to him and seat myself next to him.
"So what Smiley?"
"Aren't you going to tell me what's made you so mad all of a sudden?"
"I'm not mad."
"I know you better than that. Do you expect me to believe that? You're the most important person to me. I know when something's wrong."
"Yeah, my best friend."
For some reason, hearing those 3 words, in the way he said them had a profound effect on me. It was as if it was final. There could never be a me and him. It would always be a strictly 'best friends' relationship between us. And with that, I felt my heart gradually starting to break whilst I was sitting on that dock.
"I can tell you anything, cant I?"
"Of course," I say quietly, desperately.
"Its about ev."
And I just so desperately want to hear about her right now don't I?
"What about ev?"
"Have you noticed anything about her lately? I mean, has she been acting strange?"
"Well…I don't know. I mean, yeah, she's been quieter than usual, but I haven't thought about it that much to be honest."
"Well, since I mentioned to her in passing that there might have been a possibility that Itache was coming back-"
"Why didn't you give me warning?"
"Like I said, it was said in passing. It just came up. Anyway, since I mentioned it to her, she's been acting weird. Well, distant is more suitable. And when she saw him this morning, she went really quiet all of a sudden and wouldn't look at me."
"Don't worry about it. It might just be…erm…how can I put this?"
"Yeah, that time of the month." I can't believe I'm talking about THAT with K1lled of all people.
Then again maybe not.
"But I don't think it is. She's gone weird ever since I've started mentioning him again."
Now, with the hectic 'I love K1lled' situation taking over most of my brain and this brand spanking new information pushing its way in, I would've expected a brain overload. But for some reason, things kind of slipped into place.
Its like filling in a wordsearch, when you have the extra information, you just fill in the gaps. So picture my brain as a giant wordsearch if you will. I had information already floating around, but none of it went together, but now I had that extra bit of information, everything slotted in, like words in a wordsearch. Why can't I just simplify things?
But the one thing that stood out was ev and Itache. Why did ev act so weird as soon as she heard Itache was coming back? Then I thought about Itache words.
"You were right when you said that you can't help who you fall in love with? Yeah, but I wasn't referring to you when I agreed with you."
My hands gripped the pier. Was ev cheating on K1lled with Itache? Did Itache love ev?
One thing was sure, Itache had a hefty butt kicking coming his way.