I'm walking home and its starting to rain. I'm drenched from head to toe. But do I care?
I cant believe that twerp told ev. I could kill him. Kill him and then raise him from the dead just so I could do it all over again. I hate him.
Well, ev is going to hate me now. But she loves Itache. That's all the proof I need. But is K1lled going to believe me or the love of his life?
Somewhere, very deep, deep, deep, deep down inside of me, I feel a tiny pang of sympathy for ev. She's torn between two people that she loves. But how long has she loved Itache for? Did she just fall for K1lled because he was a replacement? That tiny pang of sympathy goes when I think about ev using K1lled. All this is getting so complicated.
I stop outside the café that K1lled and I love. Its still raining and I'm drenched. I decided to go inside and grab a coffee. I need time to sit and think.
Sitting at the usual table, I order a coffee and a doughnut. With my head in my hands, I try to think of a battle plan. The most obvious plan is to tell K1lled. But then he might not believe me and hate me for it. Then again, he might listen and split up with ev, and at the same time, give his brother a very bad beating.
The other option is that I don't say anything to him. The relationship could carry on and he remains oblivious to ev's other feelings and she gets over K1lled. Or she might tell him herself and he will dump her but hate me because I knew but didn't say anything.
"Here's your order ev." I look up and see Ifon standing there with my food and a sympathetic look on his face. "What's wrong?"
"It must be something because you look like a depressed rat that's tried to drown itself."
"Thanks for that analogy."
"Where's K1lled? It seems strange seeing one without the other."
"I don't know. I think he went home."
"Tell me what it is Smiley." I look at him as he sits down opposite me. I have to tell someone. I need help. I need exp mentorship.
"You cant tell a soul what I'm about to tell you. Promise me."
"I promise." I take a deep breath.
"I'm in love with K1lled." Ifon just stares at me. Okay, not the reaction I was expecting.
"What do you mean 'and?'?"
"Its so obvious. I mean, you two are like joined at the hip. It was inevitable that this would happen between you two. Shame that he's with ev." I bang my head on the table. "Mind the woodwork."
"I don't know what to do."
"It isn't that simple."
"You know K1lled's brother, Itache?" Ifon nodded. "He's back in town and ev has fallen in love with Itache. Its most likely she was in love with him before he left but he wasn't interested then. He had his heart set on someone else. So she fell in love with K1lled, but secretly not forgetting about Itache. So when he turns up again, all the old feelings come back. Now, with K1lled and ev's 2 year anniversary coming up, ev has told Itache she loves him but she still loves K1lled too. Now ev knows I love K1lled and she's probably going to hate me forever. Well, that's my 'theory' anyway."
"Holy surfs. No wonder you look depressed. But this is just a 'theory'."
"Yeah, but from everything I know, this is probably what's happening." Ifon raised his hand.
"LERL, get me a coffee and an espresso for Smiley. Actually, make that last one a double." Ifon turned back to me. "So, what is it your worried about?" I let out a short laugh.
"Haven't you been listening Julianne? I'm worried about what Itache might do next, what ev is going to think and how K1lled might react if he finds out about all this." I bang my head on the table one again. "I'm having a life crisis and I'm not even 16."
"Listen Smiley ," Ifon said to me as lerl put down the cups. "I think you need to tell K1lled before it spirals out of control."
"Why does everyone say that? I cant tell my best friend I love him when he's in love with my sister!"
"Can you see any other options?"
"Yeah. Let it carry on and watch what happens." I gulp down the espresso, I burns my throat but I don't care. "I have to go. I should speak to ev."
"Fine. But I still think-"
"That I should tell K1lled, I know. Wish me luck ifon."
"I think you're going to need more than luck."
"I know. I just didn't want to voice that fact out loud. It kind of removes what hope I had of coming out of this unscathed."