So here I am sitting in Biology whilst the teacher goes on the brain and brain diseases. I know I should be paying attention but my mind wanders. Whose wouldn't when Mrs Vetia is droning on about synapses? And I bet you can guess where it's wondering off to.
How did I get my self into this situation?
'You fell in love with your sisters boyfriend.'
Great. Another mental battle. I was still thinking about what k1tty said too. Maybe it would be better if I did just tell K1lled before Itache did. It might be best. But then everything will be ruined. Ev will hate me, me and K1lled might not be friends afterwards and he might tell me he doesn't feel the same, something I never want to hear.
Seriously, why cant love be easy?
I vaguely hear Mrs Vetia dismiss us while sneering at us, and I stand up and grab my stuff. I walk out, not bothering to watch where I'm going. Then, in a typical high school cliché moment, I smack right into something and I'm sent to the floor. Stars appear in front of my eyes as I feel a weight on top of me.
"Oh god, I'm so sorry," said a voice. I feel a brush creep up my cheeks as I realise it's a male.
"Its ok. It's my fault anyway. I wasn't watching where I was going."
"Smiley?" I finally open my eyes and groan.
"Damn you Itache. Get off me."
"Hey, you said it. This is your fault."
"Then why did you apologise first? Now I said get off me. People are staring." He stood up and held out a hand to me. I roll my eyes and take it. "Next time watch where you're going Itache."
"Hey, you said it was your fault."
"I changed my mind."
"Too late. But don't worry, I forgive you."
"Get lost." I turn and walk away but sadly he catches up with me. Doesn't he get the hint? "I said get lost."
I stop and turn to him.
"Why are you following me? Get over it Itache!" I shout, ignoring the looks from my fellow students. "I don't feel that way. After 2 years you should have got over it."
"But after two years you haven't got over him."
"He has nothing to do with this, Itache." I silence my voice slightly. "I don't love you. So get over it. You shouldn't still love me." He started laughing. This wasn't meant to go like this. I'm meant to have the upper hand. Damn you Itache.
"You think I still love you? Where did you get that from?"
"At lunch you said that-"
"You were right when you said that you can't help who you fall in love with? Yeah, but I wasn't referring to you when I agreed with you."
"You're in love with someone else?"
"Don't sound so shocked Smiley. People can get over things. In my case, I got over you."
"Then who is it?"
"Yeah, like I'm going to tell you." He walked around me and headed towards the exit. "Oh, and by the way , you might want to be nice to me from now on. I know your little secret." He winked at me and walked through the doors.
I was gobsmacked. No, I wasn't gobsmacked, I felt like I had been hit in the face with a wet fish then knocked down by a herd of buffalo. I wasn't shocked at the fact he was over me. I mean, who stays hung up on a person for 2 years? Except me of course. I'm the only one stupid enough to do it. I was shocked over the fact there was someone else and I couldn't figure out who it was. And also the fact that Itache came up with the idea to use my love for K1lled against me. He's not exactly the brightest crayon in the box.
"So, let me get this straight…Itache doesn't love you anymore, he's falling for someone else but we don't know who it is. He still wants to use the K1lled thing against you though."
"Well done k1tty."
"So what are you going to do?"
"Doesn't that question ever get old?"
"Don't answer a question with a question. You're avoiding the point."
"How did you get so serious? Have we switched places or something?"
"Not as far as I know. I don't think we have." Yep, k1tty is still k1tty. I'm so glad I'm not totally loosing it.
"Anyway, I don't know. I mean, it makes more sense to tell him before Itache does. But problems it could cause…I don't really want to think about them. But if I don't tell K1lled and Itache does, then that leaves me in a sticky(bomb) situation. But if I don't tell and Itache doesn't tell then things stay the way they are."
"But then it carries on eating you up inside."
"I've survived two years so it's all okay."
"But how much longer can you last?" I didn't reply. I walked out and didn't look back. The sooner I got home the better. I really needed some chocolate.
But, it wasn't meant to be.
I walked along the sidewalk, my mind trying to figure stuff out, and then I met the most unwanted site. K1lled…and Itache…alone together talking. Oh dear god.
Do you remember when I told you that I was going to be Rose who jumped back on the Titanic to be with Jack? I forgot the fact that the ship sank at the end. And Jack died too.
And this problem is like a boat, and it's sinking faster than you can say bombing medic.